The Easter bunny has fled

Had a great weekend and a heart to heart with the exgf.

We have decided to give it one last chance. We have 5 months left on the lease and if nothing has been osrted by then we are going our seperate ways. We would do it now but whoever ends up staying in the house won't be able to afford it (so much for her not needing me). So i am going o try and charm her back to me, but we shall we what happens as if it is all one way then I am going to get tired of it very quickly.

Friday was spent pottering about and tidying the house up and having the heart to heart.

Saturday went in to town for haircuts for me and my son then getting some last bits and bobs. went to my mates house that night and did the usual console, beer, beer, Film, beer, console, beer, beer, beer.

Sunday the little man was ill so we cancelled our plans to see her mum and lazed around the house during the day. We played loads of board games. Monopoly (won by my son), Thomes the Tank engine (won by my son and by me), Elefun (not sure about this one) and also back gammon (this one was for the adults and the only one the exgf could win at)

Yesterday we baked some muffins to take to her mums for our Easter Day. My sons uncles and Aunt were there so that let me have some time to myself and popping to the kitchen for a cig or four. We ate loads and play party games before we could get our eggs. We had to role a dice and there were tasks to be done for each number, which produced a few smiles especially at the physical task we had to do, mine was 10 sit ups which I haven't done for a few years, so I just stayed on the floor where I was for about 15mins until I could move again. No.4 was list 10 things, the subject was given to us by our quiz master and mine was 10 English breweries and yes I got them (with a little help), I could name the beers easily enough.

We then played the Wii for a couple of hours, in groups of four, which was funny, we started off with ten pin bowling and watching someone bowl to a tv can be very funny, especially when someone who shall remain nameless would always add a little hop at the end (no not me)

When we got home I put my son to bed and grab a duvet and pillow from upstairs and me and the ex gf played a few games of backgammon, I then got her to strip down for me and gave her an all over massage with no intentions on my side, so I stayed completely dressed and didn't sit on her like I used to do and sat at her side. This lasted for about an hour and then we cuddled up and watched flatliners and as I wasn't expecting anything it made it less stressful and me not getting annoyed as I was expecting sex at the end.

I am taking my son to my mums in April for a week so I can't wait for that and I will be able to get some autumn/spring pictures of her house, which I think will look great, as long as I don't break my camera this time.

Vicki Pollard

The below post is a text conversation that I had with the ex gf last night, as you may or may not know I usually play 5 a side football on a Wednesday night, from 6.30 till 7.30 then have a few beers after, well that is now coming to a stop. She has been offered two hours work on a Wednesday night between 5 and 7, the below is the conversation


got a text saying she had
"been offered the 5-7 Wednesday job can i accept"
so I replied "yeah I can't stop you"
then from her "well I don;t want you to be moody with me"
so I replied again "it's up to you at the end of the day, I don't have a say in your life"
she then replied "Oh great so you are already in a mood! why is your football more important than me working"
so me gain "I'm not moody, just saying its up to you"
then she replied "Look im gonna work, if you don't like it fuck off"
so I text back "then why bother asking me"
Her response "I was looking for some support"

Ok i might be able to get to a couple of games a month but only if her mum isn't working but I don't feel that this is right, so I might see if I can go to the Sunday night one instead now, trouble with that, is trying to get motivated to leave the house once all settled.

Trouble with the above conversation is that we had a similar one on Monday night when we went to the cinema, which was her idea but i ended up paying (still not worked that one out). On the way she asked if I would be annoyed if she took the position so I answered honestly and said yes, the rest of the journey and during and after the film were very quiet.

I have been emailing my mum and she can tell that I am down and she asked what was wrong so told her that I am thinking of moving out, she came back with the questions about my son and would I be ok with it, so told her yes and after working it out, I will probably have him over about 4 nights a week. It would be Tuesday nights (when she works) and probably Friday Saturday and Sunday nights to (as well as during the day) meaning Monday and Wednesday mornings I could take him to school. So I am going to start looking on line and hopefully find something and hope that they will except someone that is bankrupt.

Hope all is well out in blogland, take it easy

To be or not to be

Well it wasn't to be.

I didn't get the job, why I don't know yet but will be arranging a meeting with my manager to find out what I let myself down on.

I felt that both interviews went a lot better than the previous one that I had had for a different role as it was at the time I was going through the bankruptcy etc.

Well home life doesn't seem to be getting that much better regardign the relationship as there isn't one and I feel that I now need to move on.

Problem with moving on though is where do I go and how will I cope not seeing my son everyday as he is what makes me happy in the morning when we are sorting out breakfast making it easier to get through the day and then when i come home he is there and he will tell me about his day and we'll have a chat making my work day seem a distant memory.

I do love the exgf but she doesn't make things easy and I feel that I am there just to provide food and a roof for her. At the moment I cannot afford to move out as don't have any money for deposit or first months rent.

I want to add more but not sure at the mo, will try and put down more/better when I stop welling up