Lightening and Houses

Looks like i am going to be homeless.


Well not that dramatic but the house that we had deiced to buy has been taken off the market and we now need to start the whole buying process again.

I am upset that they have done this but also it means i won't be struggling at the end of every month, it worked out that I would have had £40-£60 at the end of the month to my name, the only bits I hadn't taken in to account was Car insurance and Tax, prob some other bits but everything else was accounted for.

I have been looking in to it and might rent for a while. its not the ideal situation but with house prices the way they are its going to be the best option I think.

Last night we had the best and biggest thunder storm I have seen in my life I think, it started around half 6-7pm and went on till about 10pm. The noise from the thunder and the rain was amazing.

The forks of lightening were superb, my son to begin with didn't like it, he has never enjoyed thunder, but I got him to sit with me and we watched quite a bit from the balcony.

I took this from the spare room window at about half 7. The reason the picture is grainy is because of the amount of rain.

Well

I haven't had the big chat with the gf but for a great reason, we have been getting on great recently and i am not one for rocking the boat.

We have found a house we have liked and are now waiting back from the mortgage company as to weather we can have the money or not (fingers crossed they say yes).

Today I am still feeling a little worse for wear after the weekend.

It was my friends wedding on Saturday, she was married in the local Catholic Church, which from the outside doesn't look much but the inside was magnificent. Once the service was finished it was back to her dads house for the reception.

The house it still stuck in the 70's her dad has never really updated it, but where the marque was in the garden it looked amazing.

The gf went home about 8ish that evening as she was suffering from her cold and hay fever, but I stayed on and I thought i would stay for maybe a couple of hours nope alot longer, I got home just before three after leaving about 2.15-2.30am. I took a wrong turning, if I had taken a right instead of a left it would have taken me ten mins, oh well.

Nothing much has really been going on but will update if I remember anything.

Chicken

Guess what,

I didn't have the chat, I am thinking about doing it tonight but I need to do something as we are looking in to buying a new house.

Damn it

My thoughts

My thoughts have calmed down a little since my earlier post but still not all in one place.

Today when I got home everything seems fine and I am just wondering if I am worrying.stressing about nothing, but then,.... not sure what I was trying to out down there but think I really need to talk to the gf tomorrow when she gets back to work. Need to find out what is actually going on between us.

Wo oh wo

I have all this things running in my head some when I think about make me happy and some sad.

These thoughts are all to do with my relationship with my gf and my son. I love my son to bits but I really don't think I am live with my gf anymore. After what happened Monday then Wednesday it really is getting to much for me, ok last night was nice that was only one day out of the week where we didn't seem off with each other.

The good thoughts are me living on my own and not having the hassle of the gf moaning and nagging me. I think I have come to the point in my mind where I do believe I can handle not living my son, I will miss him loads but know that I will get to see him when I want and planned visits Wednesdays and weekends. I have also come to resolve that if we do split all I want from the house is my dvd collection, games consoles, clothes, tv and computer.

I Know that all relationships have ups and downs and this is only my thoughts for now, I will probably re write this or maybe delete it but