Last Night

I don't seem to be able to focus to well today, I feel rough and my tongue feels furry, all I can suggest then is that it was a cracking night, which It was.

I drank, I smoked, I had fun.

Well I saw the Zutons last night and I can say that I was not disappointed.

http://www.thezutons.com/

I was a little unsure what to expect from them as their albums are great, but this I can say about other bands and their live set was shocking and not in a good way, however The Zutons did not disappoint one bit. They were loud and clear, they were in time with each other, they simply rocked. They pleased the crowd with the tracks that they played and they had some audience participation which was good and the audience, I must say loved it.

I think last night had the main ingredients for a good night.

Beer
Friendly Atmosphere
Great music
Beer
Good Company

Have a good weekend

Yesterday

Nothing much really happened yesterday, just a normal day at work.

I did however get through the post, new albums of Red Hot Chili Peppers, The Zutons and The Streets.

The Red Hot chili Peppers album is them back at their original level, which was great to hear again.
The Zutons is good and there is one line which has already stuck "I miss your ginger hair and the way you like to dress"(will be seeing them live this week which I can't wait for, I have heard they are a good live band so am keeping my fingers crossed) .
The Streets, I brought this as I hadn't been let down by the first to albums, which are good albums, but this one is going to need to grow on me more, I think this is because the previous ones I found more catchy, where as this one I feel they have slightly changed the tempo and style.

Well tonight will be spent in doors, either playing the xbox or catching up on a DVD, I say catching up, what I mean is watching one of the many in my collection that I still haven't watched yet, I am aiming to try and watch every DVD at least twice, this way in my own mind it was worth paying the price for instead of paying Blockbusters and not being able to keep the DVD.

What happened to the weekend

Well not much really happened after Tuesday last week, just the normal day to day stuff of going to work, going home etc etc.

But then Friday arrived and it started again, was chatting to my partner(N) and she starts having ago at me because I won't be home till about 4/half 4, I can only do this on a Friday and only if I get in early, which I did and she moaned at that to.

So she accuses me of seeing someone at work because I came in for 7.45am and as I'm not leaving till half 3-4. So it starts on MSN and we start discussing who's going to be moving out. She also wants us to sit down so we can discuss who gets what if we do split

I am now getting to the end of my tether and if it happens again someone will be moving out.

The Weekend was good.

Saturday morning I spent cleaning the kitchen from top to bottom, five minutes later though still looked like a bomb had hit it, but at least it was a chemical bomb, as I am sure nothing would be able to live with the amount of bleach I used.

Met up with my brother Saturday night and went to my dads with him, doing the sons bit and got very drunk and very stoned. My dad was drunk so was his partner, she talks for England and everything is I/we have done better, it gets on my nerves so all I end up doing is switching off, which I did do a couple of times and each time she had finished I looked up and asked her what she said as I had no idea. I think she got the gist in the end, or was that because she fell alseep on the sofa.

Sunday was spent recovering and relaxing with my son as N was working.
Did a little shopping to get dinner bits, when we got home I relaxed a little bit more then cooked dinner.

After the aftermath

Well after yesterday and not knowing where I was regarding my partner, I have decide to let the matter drop and get on with my life with her by my side. Two reason for this.

1 I love her
2 I love my son and don't feel that this is a good enough reason for his parents to split up.

So you are probably thinking he's only doing if for his son, and on a level you are right, if my son hadn't been born I would have kick her out straight away and even packed her stuff for her, but my son is alive and he is the greatest kid I know (yes I am bias but I don't care). He is the one my partner should be thanking that we are still together as I sat down and thought of all the possibilities of what life would be with her with out her, with her and my son, with just my son, just my son at weekends and its not what I won't.

I also want to be with my partner as I love her loads, I enjoy her company, I love it when we go out together, her smile, her body, her smell, everything about her. The way she comes out with something that makes no sense at all but she thinks it is perfectly reasonable English.

The weekend

It started of like most weekends
Friday
takeway from local Indian restaurant, then cuddled on the sofa watching Friday night TV.
Saturday
was spent most of the morning cleaning, then went to watch the football, which was a great game and well done to Liverpool, sorry West Ham fans. So slightly tipsy from that, went home and put my little boy to bed. My partners friend came round and they got ready for a girls night out, they left and my fired came round for a few beers and play the xbox.
He was slightly more tipsy than me but was a good evening. I have stayed up watching a couple of DVD's and playing the xbox, still drinking, until the other half finally gets in at half 2, she's not alone, she's with a friend of ours who has kindly walked her home, they are both very drunk and we stay up till about 4 drinking and talking when he decides to get a taxi home.
So my partner walks him downstairs to wait with him till the taxi appears, which is fine until abut 10 mins have passed so I go out on to the balcony and hear them talking, then its a bit quiet, then I hear them talking again and (not sure who says it) but "can I have another kiss". Now I think I imagine this so I sneak downstairs and find out what they are talking about, and from there it sort of goes blank, I go back upstairs and they are still talking so I go back down and listen again, that's still blank until she comes in and says "I know you were listening" so I tell her I was and asked what the hell she thought she was doing.

What hurts the most is that we haven't had a great sex life since our son was born, I couldn't remember the last time we had a proper kiss, we used to kiss all the time, then when something likes this happen you doubt yourself, is it me she doesn't actually want to kiss or have sex with.

Sunday
Got up, still not sure if I had dreamt what happened, the saw my partner , realised it wasn't a dream.
Faffed around the house in the morning not quite sure what I was going to be doing, do I kick her out or not, but going through my mind was if i do throw her out, will she take our son. I don't think I could cope being a weekend dad and my heart goes out to those that do want to see their kids.
So anyway get the little man dressed so we can go swimming, he loves it, once the arm bands are on there is no stoppping him, hes on his back, then his front then hes out of the pool jumping back in off the steps.

The g/f, this is my partner, comes and watches us as she is finishing work soon. I try and blank her but I don't succeed very well.

So we get home and i forgive her, just like that, not sure wether its because I don't want to lose her or don't want to lose my son, or both. It may even be because I don't want to put up with her whinning on about how sorry she is.

Today though I don't know how I feel about the whole situation

To Clean or Not to clean

Its been a while since I lifted a finger around the house, I admit its the last thing I want to do when I get home, its also one of the last things my partner wants to do to. Ok I understand that she does work a few hours a week (She does 12:30 hours to 18 hrs week) , she also looks after our son during the day. He's 2 and a great kid. What I can't understand though is why she can't do house work at the same time, is it that difficult, so yesterday I decide something had to change and that started with me. The bedroom looked like a bomb had hit it, followed by a hurricane, clothes everywhere, I never knew how many clothes we had. So I cleared the floor of clothes, these are now piled up by the washing basket as this was full with the first load of clothes I had picked up. I then went around and cleared the floor of all the junk that had accumulated, I'm not proud of it but I took a black sack full of rubbish out, this included magazines, empty bottles etc. The game plan is to sort the clothes out in to two bags (well I know that its going to take more) one for recycling and one for down and out rubbish.

Not sure which room to start on next but will keep you posted.

Illness related voice change

Why is it when my partner is ill or tired (when its both I just want to move out) that her patience level drops and her voice raises to a shout the moment I disagree with something. It winds me up chronic when she does it to and then she thinks I am in a mood with her because I stop talking, the only reason I do this is so she won't shout anymore.

Hangovers are not fun

How is it that when I used to work in a bar hangovers didn't bother me now they do, I'm not sure if its age related or because I don't drink as frequently, anyway went outlast night on the spur of the moment started off meaning to have a quiet drink, but no ended up hammering them down mixing cider and lrger, all sorts of different shots. I don't quite rember the walk home but I do remeber waking up on the sofa at 3am wondering how I got there, decided best was to get the spare duvet out of the cupbard as not to wake my partner or son.

But I did have fun :)

Car servicing A necessary evil?

I know a lot of people have there cars serviced and 9 times out of 10 it takes longer than they have said or costs more than they quoted (well it has for me everytime I have had it done). So when I booked my car in for a service for next week, I informed them I will be dropping it off at 7am the tell me that "Your car will be ready for collection from 09.00am onwards." Is it me or is this a typo?

UPDATE

Had a reply from the servicing company "I'm positive! I have booked your car into a waiting appointment at 08.00am as the car will be here already, so it will definitely be ready by 09.00am."

Do I try holding them to this?

And it begins

This is my first time setting up a blog and working in IT this does seem really daunting to me . I am doing this as I have never kept a diary and have decied it is time that I wrote down my thoughts and happenings of the day. I can't promise I will write in it everyday or weekly, but I will make at least one post a month, this is a promise to myself.