To be or not to be

Well it wasn't to be.

I didn't get the job, why I don't know yet but will be arranging a meeting with my manager to find out what I let myself down on.

I felt that both interviews went a lot better than the previous one that I had had for a different role as it was at the time I was going through the bankruptcy etc.

Well home life doesn't seem to be getting that much better regardign the relationship as there isn't one and I feel that I now need to move on.

Problem with moving on though is where do I go and how will I cope not seeing my son everyday as he is what makes me happy in the morning when we are sorting out breakfast making it easier to get through the day and then when i come home he is there and he will tell me about his day and we'll have a chat making my work day seem a distant memory.

I do love the exgf but she doesn't make things easy and I feel that I am there just to provide food and a roof for her. At the moment I cannot afford to move out as don't have any money for deposit or first months rent.

I want to add more but not sure at the mo, will try and put down more/better when I stop welling up