Happy New Year

Creative title huh.

I would like to say that I have moved on with my life and I have found a place to live blah blah blah but I can't as i haven't.

We all had a great Christmas and my son was thoroughly spoilt, be he deserves it. We had a couple of ups and downs over the period but worked through them (just).

Over the break my dad phoned me and asked if I had a spare laptop he could borrow, no probs as i have one or two floating around, so I take it to him and we get it working on the wireless in the hotel he is staying at, I stay for a coffee then leave and go to the gf's mum's to get a pair of secateurs to cut back a couple of bushes. I get home with the gf moaning a little as I said I was only going to be an hour but was an hour and a half, we have lunch and I get to work on the bush with my son helping me stack the branches in to an old sheet so I can take it down to the tip. With the car loaded I head off an realise i don't have my phone with me, not a problem as the only person to call me would probably be the gf, so I head off and empty the car out and get home. I get in and the gf asks my son to go and play in my room, which he does and the Spanish inquisition starts. The gf has gone through my phone to see what I have been up to, she asks me who Paula is, I tell her it is a friend from work who has recently had twins, she asks why I had put a kiss on the end of my text and why I had been round her house, so I told her again that it was a friend from work and i went to see her and her twins, she didn't believe me and kept asking the same question to which I kept giving the same reply, she asked why I hadn't mentioned her before, I told her it was because she is a work friend but that didn't cut it, she then moans that any time my dad calls its just because he wants something, which in a way is true but at the same time at least I get to see him. the gf then defends her actions by saying that she did it because she didn't believe i had gone to see my dad, so back to the trust issue again, from there we got to her wanting me to move out, which I should have taken as a get out and left. We discussed when I would see my son, which worked out he would stay every Tuesday and Thursday night and I would also have him every other weekend, taking him on Saturday and taking him to scholl on the Monday. We discussed what I would take with me and to be honest it wasn't much apart from the stuff in my room and my dvds, cds and some kitchen bits, she said that I didn't look that upset about it, I said that we should still be civil about it, but she told me she couldn't otherwise she wouldn't want me to leave.

That night we seemed to get on better and i even slept in her bed, no no funny business even though I wanted to, we got up in the morning and seemed to get on well, which was proved when we had sex that morning. So I put myself back in to the place where I didn't want to be. We then went to her mums for New Years Eve and had quite a good time where my son stayed up till about half to and only really started complaining he was tired around 2am.

Now, this might be a bit cheeky but I need your help, I have realised that no matter what I do I am not going to be able be the boyfriend she wants me to be so I do need to move out and find my own place, so what I am after, is any practical/emotional advice you can give me, I know that I need to sit down with her and tell her it is not working, but any time I have tried this in the past with just trying to sort us out, either ends in an argument or making promises that we don't keep or work on. I have already got the backing of my mum regarding rent etc so part one, as you know is sorted, but the whole splitting up and moving on part is a whole different story and I don't know how to go about it.