Past Week

Well not much has really happened over the past week apart from my gf's birthday, i took her to see Jimmy Carr, me going out over the weekend and her trying to finish with me.

Before i start ranting and raving, just to say if you get the chance go and see Jimmy Carr live, he is a very funny man and very good at cutting the hecklers down.

I don't know what caused it or why it happened but we were in bed and she told me she couldn't do us anymore and that now was the time for us to move on. Now I know that she has said this before and i don't know whether she means it each time or not but I just agree with her and tell her shes right I think it is time, I'm not sure if I do this because

A I have had enough
B She doesn't mean it and tomorrow all will be fine again.

This time the latter happened and we are still together, I don't know if this has made us stronger or not but it really does my head in.

She did give me a few reasons,

"I want you to be happy" so i told her I am happy
"You should be able to have sex", I do with you, ok not as often as I won't but i love you
"There was this program on TV that got me thinking" (now i have no idea what program it was or anything), Its only a TV program and I don't care I want to be with you.

Now I can't remember if it was before I fell a sleep or next morning but she told me she did want to be with me.

Anyway enough about that, on Saturday we went out for one of her friends birthday, which was a nice change as normally she will go without me, either because she thinks I won't enjoy myself or just so she can have some time to herself, either of which I don't mind. We had a good time and when the main meal was over I left her with her friends and I met up with a friend and we went out drinking for a bit longer.

At the moment though I feel in limbo, with trying to sell the house, work (just feels like the same thing everyday and no way out, think I need to talk to someone about that) and the way me and the gf are.

It will sort itself out, just need to sit down and think all of it through.