Day 2

Yesterday I think I was having an off day.

I do love my gf lots.

After work yesterday I went and played football, but because someone forgot to book the pitch we were kicked off, so we ended up using Jumpers for goal posts over the polo field.

It was one of the funniest things I have seen for ages, we were sliding and falling all over the place. We had troubles passing dribbling and shooting. I think we need a lot more practice on grass before we play an eleven aside match again.

After football it was off out to the pub to watch the Liverpool V Boro game, Liverpool won 2-0 :)

I know from previous times from giving up that my weakest moment is in the pub with a pint, but last night I didn't smoke and I didn't really have the craving that I thought I would. Normally the evening starts of with one pint one cig then progresses until I am chain smoking.

Tonight I think I really need to sit down with the gf and once and for all sort this out. I need to know that she wants me (need is not a good thing). If she turns round and tells me she doesn't then at least I will know that i can start things moving.

My gf has no idea that all this is going on in my head and it is time she did.